Saturday, June 25, 2016
Tuhan itu Maha Mendengar, even apa yang kita bisikkan,
Today I woke up to a very good news. well it was during suhr time that i read the email. SubhanAllah.
This is just a baby step, i have to work hard for it. Ingatkan dah nak masuk final year ni, aku slow down. Tak sangka, i have at least 3-4 events/significant things to do.
Things come at the most unexpected times. So rasanya boleh lah Marsya menyibukkan diri. Again. I'm loving the vibes, the excitements and the pressure and all the things that keep me busy. It's a good sign, actually.
Surprisingly, there's a lot of diversification and weh, rasa macam, let's try everything!
weh i'm just so excited that im not sure what i'm writing. ok chill marsya jangan excited sangat. lek.
Thursday, June 9, 2016
Tuesday, May 24, 2016
and so i did..
i confessed to him, without alarm.
i felt like i just want to do it, and yeah, i did.
it surely took a lot of guts to confess to your crush, i mean, of course.
i think i was mistaken by this feeling, i was just being totally comfortable having him around, and i realize the consequences of destroying this friendship after this event.
i realize that. but, i guess, i have to bear with this. i mean, it is surely a wake up call for me to move on
i dont really expect anything from him in return, all i wanted to do was to let it out from my chest, since i've been holding it for quite a time.
i dont think that we can be almost the same like before. that is quite sad, seriously, because he is my friend, whom i trust. this thing will surely make him awkward, and i think he wont giving me false hope by treating me the same like he did before.
gosh im so gonna miss our friendship. i hope it's not the end.
i dont know if our friends found out, i dont know why i recklessly jump to my decision, i cant imagine if we ever meet again.
i didnt feel regret, until just now! lol. after 12 hours of the event.
but yeah, let's forget about what happened, but i'll be totally understand if he won't treat me the same anymore.
since, it is quite hard for me to like someone. and i guess that's it.
but im totally happy because it didnt turn awkward drastically. i like the way he respond, like so chill, just like he is. someone who i respect. no harsh words, just the truth, which i prefer to hear. and even me, i felt a huge relief. and i dont feel sad of rejection, (i expect nothing from him, and can only expect worse) but only because of the friendship that maybe wont be the same anymore.
marsya buat rekod. first time aku confess. first time in my life. :)