Monday, April 21, 2014

perjuangan?

Yesterday, i was remembering the old days when i was head over heels for mata handsome, and that was few years back, zaman sekolah menengah.

tahun ni dah masuk tahun kedua i'm out of highschool and the memories still remain strong in my head, my heart, and new memories created.

i'm not sure about this feeling. but i guess, 'it's' still there, somewhere in my heart. how funny, after a few years, after so many days, eventho we dont really know each other, (like seriously. we rarely talk.) but it's there. it is just there, not moving anywhere.

there's a phase bila semua orang sibuk cakap pasal kahwin awal, blablabla, everywhere, (sampai sekarang actually) sampai aku pun macam hampir ter-influence dgn all those stuff.mula pasang angan angan dll. lols.

but someone made me realize, ada banyak lagi benda yang aku belum buat. bak kata dia , 'perjuangan belum selesai'. buat aku fikir balik, and lagi kuat untuk cakap: when the time comes, it will happen.

and for mata handsome, i'm glad that we're still friends, at least. or acquaintance. idk.

banyak lagi belum buat. perjuangan belum selesai. buat masa sekarang, doa. lagipun, you haven't meet a lot of ppl out there, marsya.

Wednesday, April 16, 2014

juang

Perjuangan belum selesai. Baru nak mula. Im still couldnt imagine myself with anyone in the future. Luls. Im just 19. Not yet 19. I have plenty things to do. Terlalu banyak sampai rasa tak sempat nak buat semua benda.

 selamat berjuang.

malam 16/4

Maafkan mereka, mereka tidak tahu
Mereka tidak ramas buku, mereka segan ilmu
Mereka tidak fasih malah fasik guna kata
Kita kongsi nama bangsa tapi tidak kasta bahasa
Maafkan mereka, mereka tiada nilai
Ibu bapa lalai dari kecil dah diabai
Tanpa kasih sayang, mereka suka menyakiti
Kita kongsi warna mata tapi tidak warna hati

malique ft jamal abdillah, aku maafkan kamu.

does this lyrics means something to you? for me, it means a lot.

learning the differences and adapting with everything here, well, it taught me a lot.

i can be real harsh. like, damn harsh you cant bear my words. but, tu lah. haih. marsya marsya -,-

time to sleep, goodnight.
muhd cerita how he accidentally insult those ppl yang duduk dekat flat time dia duduk dekat maktab. he is right about that. then, aku condemn budak laki asrama dekat rumets. have to say that those yang bukan asrama lagi gentleman. im not sure if its a fact or a mindset but i've seen a lot of them. and i think i was quite harsh saying those staff when they start questioning. but, that's the truth. and just now, heard they were talking about my friends yang dibenci orang lain but i find him ok. aku pun tak tahu, aku ni side dia sgt ke apa ke, but i just dont agree with how they label others. remind me so much of mrsm. oh wait, they're one. im learning, to adapt with everything. bcz life is a big classroom, and i hope i won't fail the test by Him. just, we're soooo different! jot. entah lah. but yeah trying to addapt.