“We write to taste life twice, in the moment and in retrospect.”
Anaïs Nin

Wednesday, January 11, 2017

positive vibes


The semester hasn't started yet, but I'm already here in Shah Alam.

My friends and I had this one heavy feeling of coming back here, to college, packing up our things for another, last semester in here, UiTM Shah Alam. It's a mixed feeling actually.

Sometimes I wish the semester break is longer, to spend more time with my family, but sometimes I hope it ends faster, to see these lovable people in Shah Alam , esp Seroja , where all your friends melaghakan but in a good way, we laugh a lot, to and about each other. Sorry girls, I love all 12 of you. Haha. That's why some people said, home is not a location, it's where your heart is. Seroja has been my second home (literally) for 4 years, and I'm so grateful for the chance I had to stay in college for 8 semesters in a row.

As for the reason, we had to come here earlier, we were actually having a study trip but since it is flooding badly in Southern Thailand, things have to be postponed. I believe in hikmah in every single thing happening in our life, and also for this.

Our rehearsal and preparation are still going on as usual. And meeting these people, they boost m spirit indirectly and getting back my momentum to do all the works efficiently (I hope so!) The process of learning something that all of us are not good at is something fun! None of us know to dance, maybe it's an exception for some. But most of us are soo kayuuu! I definitely having fun laughing at myself and my friends.

I had fun with those people, esp with them who had been with me from the early day I started involve doing students events. Ahh marsya ni sentimental pulak hahah. Definitely I want to spend some times with them, Im so gonna miss them after I leave UiTM.

On the bright side, I have approximately 5-6 months to spend with them. 2017, the year of getting back to my root and creating as much memories with people.

Currently I'm freaking out for my results. just hoping for the best!

Wednesday, January 4, 2017

Some hope for 2017

What is the best thing about giving some sharing? It is actually a reminder to us, remember our roots and remember those days when things were easy because of you once had a pure heart.

Those hearts, it started blacken and filled with dirt cause by the sins we did.

I miss those moments when things went well, I tasted the sweetness of iman, the calmness in every dawn, the satisfaction feeling by the end of the day, those awe for every new sirah stories, the motivation completing our ‘mutabaah amal’, the closeness that you feel to Your Creator in every sujood.

I miss my sisters. I miss those environments, and I’m surely miss myself. I ran from my old self, I thought I was away for a couple of time and now it feels like forever.

Those days are not totally gone, and it should start within me.
Those days are waving and waiting for a comeback.
To those days, I’m coming.

2017 will be  a good, challenging year, with some hopes and positive vibes in within. 2017 is the year of getting back to the root.

Maybe it’s not too late to wish you a happy new year.
May Allah always shower us with His blessings.

Monday, January 2, 2017

A Happy List

I can't say much for my new year resolution. Being me, I want to be everything, I want to do everything. Like what the wise man said, 'Stay Hungry, Stay Foolish'. But I forgot there must be an opportunity cost that I have to let go. Greedy me.

I just finished watching The Intern and it was so inspiring.I know it's a fiction tapi why not kan we have such dreams. I'm quite not sure of what I really want right now. I had to take a few steps back to brain everything. Sometimes, life is not just about achieving our materialistic or measurable goals. It's about living your life to the fullest, and just be happy.

For me, when we are too focusing on what to achieve, we often miss out the own essence of life and tend to neglect those things that we thought we are handling well. Hmm. It's a wake-up call for me.

Instead of making a list of new year's resolution, I should make my own happy list! And what I can see, 2017 is the year of getting back to the root, finding our true self, be more selfless but not too selfless, I should find an equilibrium point in between.

Sometimes I do feel like I'm a perfectionist, trying to do everything based on my logic, but at the end of the day, it's the heart that matters the most.

I really should start making my own happy list. It should be a small act that I should turn into a habit, such as eat before I get hungry and stop before I'm feeling full, or make use of my family time or learn to cook new recipes or give at least rm1 per day to those in needs.

Or maybe... my resolution should be in line with my happy list. I'm a goal oriented person, but maybe my happy list will compensate my logical thinking.

at the end of the day, it's about finding Him in the first place, and later you will feel contempt with what you have.

Good night.